even now I keep watching you .. thinking about you. Maybe I'm supposed to be wishing you were as unhappy as me. or maybe I'm supposed to be forgetting that you ever existed. But those feelings won't come to my head .. ever. Instead, I think of you when a song comes on that reminds me of you. or I think of you when I pass the place we first kissed .. every night I think about where you've been, what you're doing. And the truth is, I can't wish you anything other than happiness. If I'm not what makes you happy anymore, fine. I'm so sorry to say that because I'm sitting here right now thinking of what I did wrong. and what I changed to make you not want this anymore. But I'm getting over that and still being myself .. maybe one day you'll get to know me all over again. I hate that we've drifted apart and I'm not the one who gets to be with you, for those little things I miss most .. like the way your face looks when you get excited, or how your voice changes when you get mad and the sound of your laugh. Those are the things about you that I'll always remember . But if I can't be the one who gets you excited or mad or makes you laugh, then I hope someone does. You deserve it and I hope you never forget that. Don't let yourself feel anything that you don't want to .. and always be with the people that make you happy. I hope you never change from the person that I fell in love with .. that way, maybe I'll never stop loving you. Maybe one day you'll realize it, too. But for now, I'm here, somewhere waiting .. thinking about the sound of your laugh ..